My "Secret"

I am working on self-employment.  For a short bit of time, I decided to work for - most especially - the elderly who needed personal care such as with bathing and transferring from wheelchair to shower chair, and light housekeeping.

My real passion is writing and organization, so a couple of upsets in the personal care realm led me gently (or not so) to recognize that I needed to "make a stand" for myself.  Just what would I like to do?  Not just for some extra income to put bread and butter on the table.

I found I very much liked the older folks for whom I worked, but feeling (and this was much my own doing) that I was a servant of sorts just wasn't making me happy.  Odd, isn't it because I alone created the scenario.

So, I am switching my emphasis of entrepreneurial use to "Harmony through organizing - files, correspondence, office care and cleaning, pet and livestock care - to bring order to the lives of busy families."

It would also appear that I am working my way through my own ideas after my excursion into the "Dark Side" in life with a narcissist/psychopath and his insane-asylum clan.  As yet, I am not certain with any sort of absolute stance just what my beliefs are regarding God, the Universe, and a plan that somehow includes me.

I listened to a very interesting radio interview of a once-Baptist minister, Compere, who felt that he no longer believed as he was taught in seminary.

I find myself on this same threshhold.  Odd because it's not all that frightening.  Not nearly as much as my trek through a "crisis of faith."  Perhaps it is just saying this aloud that gives me courage.  I don't feel alone.  Maybe THIS is the old joke that has come to life: "you haven't lost your own faith...you've lost that of all the others-in-your-head.  Go out and find your own."

What happens if I don't appease others?  I heard myself telling of my feelings of upset over my role in an odd "servant persona" and realized that I was genuinely talking to a stronger "wholeness" of Me.

I am reminded of watching the video, "The Secret."  It isn't that some special information has been withheld.  IT IS that I must honestly connect with me.  Without attachment?  Yes, strangely that is apparent when the timing is correct.  I have no idea how one would "push the envelope" on that TIMING...but for me, it's here...

"The Road less Traveled - resiliency, and thus it flows." My business card.

Name Change

Let's see how this part runs.  I am working on getting my blog up and functioning.  Needed to change the name from "Humanity's Edge" which I really liked and had thought was original - only to discover it is the title of a neat book of short sci-fi stories. 

Now that I look at this title for the blog, I like it.  With life in the Aftermath of a Narcissist/psychopath, I am indeed "reluctant" on many levels.  EXCEPT HUMOR!

Reading Thomas Sheridan's facebook post and his feelings of energy change, I find myself feeling the same sense that "something wicked this way comes."  If Nassim Haramein is correct an the solar system is indeed in free fall throughout the universe, perhaps we are covering new ground, both physically and metaphorically.