My "Secret"

I am working on self-employment.  For a short bit of time, I decided to work for - most especially - the elderly who needed personal care such as with bathing and transferring from wheelchair to shower chair, and light housekeeping.

My real passion is writing and organization, so a couple of upsets in the personal care realm led me gently (or not so) to recognize that I needed to "make a stand" for myself.  Just what would I like to do?  Not just for some extra income to put bread and butter on the table.

I found I very much liked the older folks for whom I worked, but feeling (and this was much my own doing) that I was a servant of sorts just wasn't making me happy.  Odd, isn't it because I alone created the scenario.

So, I am switching my emphasis of entrepreneurial use to "Harmony through organizing - files, correspondence, office care and cleaning, pet and livestock care - to bring order to the lives of busy families."

It would also appear that I am working my way through my own ideas after my excursion into the "Dark Side" in life with a narcissist/psychopath and his insane-asylum clan.  As yet, I am not certain with any sort of absolute stance just what my beliefs are regarding God, the Universe, and a plan that somehow includes me.

I listened to a very interesting radio interview of a once-Baptist minister, Compere, who felt that he no longer believed as he was taught in seminary.

I find myself on this same threshhold.  Odd because it's not all that frightening.  Not nearly as much as my trek through a "crisis of faith."  Perhaps it is just saying this aloud that gives me courage.  I don't feel alone.  Maybe THIS is the old joke that has come to life: "you haven't lost your own faith...you've lost that of all the others-in-your-head.  Go out and find your own."

What happens if I don't appease others?  I heard myself telling of my feelings of upset over my role in an odd "servant persona" and realized that I was genuinely talking to a stronger "wholeness" of Me.

I am reminded of watching the video, "The Secret."  It isn't that some special information has been withheld.  IT IS that I must honestly connect with me.  Without attachment?  Yes, strangely that is apparent when the timing is correct.  I have no idea how one would "push the envelope" on that TIMING...but for me, it's here...

"The Road less Traveled - resiliency, and thus it flows." My business card.